So... it was the month of July and it was around 2:35 AM in the morning when the cab left the office. Had just finished my Friday shift and was leaving for home. For your better understanding, let me make you aware that my shift is from 5 PM to 2 AM... pretty neat right?

Well, it was a tiring day, a tiring week to be honest before a 2 day long weekend and I was more exhausted than excited for the weekend. I was sitting in the cab and was listening to my cab mates talking about their weekend plans.. well... one of them wasn't lucky enough to have a weekend off so he was sitting in silence, thinking about something in his own world maybe. "SO !!! WHAT'S YOU PLAN AADI?" a voice reached me. "JUST GONNA REST THIS WEEKEND. DO THE LAUNDRY(if you know you know).", I replied. "BUT WASN'T THAT THE SAME THING YOU SAID LAST WEEK?", he asked. "WELL, LAUNDRY DOES COME UP EVERY WEEK." I said. Afterall, what better do I have to do.

So it was about 3:07AM when I got off the cab... looked at my watch and realized that I reached 8 minutes earlier than yesterday and took a deep inhale.. and exhale.. as I walked towards my flat. Seemed like the whole world was sleeping, apart from the guard sitting on the gate of the society of course, though he looked he was in need of some sleep as well. Luckily, my shift ended way before his. 

It was dead silence all around, not a single sound, not even the chirping of the insects. Just the sound of my own footsteps. I reached my building and stood there for a while staring at those stairs and trying to gather some strength before I started climbing them. "WHY DO I HAVE TO DO THIS EVERYDAY YAAR?" I asked myself in a disappointing tone and started climbing. After so much of hard work, I was finally there, in front of my flat, looked at the door which had a plate stating "13304" while pulling out the keys from my pocket. So I unlocked the door, it was pitch dark so first I reached out to the light switch before completely shutting the door. Turned on the light, went inside, shut the door and locked it from inside. Took off my shoes first, kept my bag on the chair and sat on the chair for a while.

It was indeed a tiring week.

So without wasting any more time, I changed into my shorts and went into my room and just laid myself down on my mattress with my face towards the ceiling with no energy left to even move my finger but still not tired enough to put myself to sleep. Thoughts about everything started to flow in my mind about all the regrets I had, all the wrong decisions I took in the past years and the place, situation and mental state it had landed me into. Thoughts about everything that continued to make me feel disappointed in myself. And after a whole hour of getting beaten up by my not so cool thoughts, I finally gave up and dozed off... 

[So, i know it has been a long time since i haven't been here, things have been very exhausting lately with everyday effort of figuring things out, though i know no one was waiting, but if someone was, thank you for the wait <3]